Reflection (c) 2006 T.A. Chase

I look into the water and stare at the reflection of the man. He’s tall, blonde and blue-eyed. The very picture of all that is beautiful and acceptable in the world. He’s a man women love to flirt with and men envy.

Yet looking deep into those eyes, I see a wall. It’s been built to keep people from seeing his darkest secrets and his deepest longings. No one knows he’s unhappy. No one understands that the life he lives isn’t what he dreams of at night.

He escorts gorgeous women to parties and galas. He’s romantically linked to any woman he spends more than a minute with. A grimace mars that perfect forehead. He doesn’t want to press his lips to a smooth cheek. Soft skin leaves him cold. Gentle hands make him worry. A curvy perfumed body rubbing against him turns him off.

A five o’clock shadowed chin scraping across his cheek. Rough skin warming his own. Strong hands grasping him and holding him tight. A muscular solid body making him moan. That’s what he longs for, but he doesn’t know how to break down the walls and ask for it.

I touch a finger to the water and watch the ripples distort the image of the man. I stand and he does the same. Sadness fills my heart as I walk away, a living reflection of the man in the pond. Trapped with in my life as he is in the water.

19 Responses “Reflection”

  1. T.A.Chase says:

    Hey Jan..nice of you to drop by. I hope you keep coming back. 🙂

    Thanks for the encouragement. You probably understand when I say I doubt I could stop writing. It’s an addiction.

  2. T.A.Chase says:

    lol..S.W., I’m sure I’ve written a bunch of stuff that isn’t brilliant, but I save the great stuff for you. 🙂


  3. T.A.Chase says:

    Yum..oj and vodka..sounds like the perfect combo to me, Paige. And don’t worry. There are times when I need to lighten up. So in honor of your request, I’ve posted a happy story..or at least one that shouldn’t make anyone feel bad. I hope.

  4. T.A.Chase says:

    Anonymous…please don’t stop reading and come back again. 🙂 I promise there’ll be more happy stories along the way.

    (It’s just not what I’m best at.)

  5. T.A.Chase says:

    Jenna…your new friend apperciates the gesture. 🙂

  6. Jan Springer says:

    That’s awesome. 🙂
    Keep up the great writing!!


  7. S. W. Vaughn says:

    Jeez, TA, don’t you ever write anything that isn’t brilliant? 🙂

    This is gorgeous. *sigh*

  8. Paige Burns says:

    Sorry, you know me. My serious bone only lasts a minute or two. I’m sure that’s why we make a perfect pair. Yin and Yang. Chocolate and Peanut Butter. Salt and Pepper. Orange juice and Vodka. 😉

  9. Anonymous says:

    Things like this make me want to cry…. but NOT stop reading (small smile)

  10. Jenna Howard says:

    Oh. (presses a hand over her heart) Oh honey. Beautiful. Sad.

    (wipes a tear away, sighs, rests head on new friend’s shoulder while slipping her hand into his)

  11. T.A.Chase says:

    Sherrill…thanks. I’m sorry to do that, but sometimes I just have to write the tough stuff. 🙂

    Stop by tomorrow when I write something fun and happy for Paige.

  12. T.A.Chase says:

    Just for you, Paige..I’ll write a happy scene tomorrow. I promise there are happy gay men out there. It just wasn’t the mood I was in when I wrote this one. 🙂

  13. Sherrill Quinn says:

    Wow. T.A., that’s just… wow. You make my heart hurt.

  14. Paige Burns says:

    Babe, I love your writing, and once again, you’ve touched my heart, but damn dude, aren’t there any happy gay men? LOL

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